For the past fifteen minutes I was just staring at the screen, my eyes unfocused, my left hand smashing my face while my right hand scrolled trough facebook, of tumblr, or maybe it was someone’s livejournal. I geniuely have no idea, but I was staring, unable to do anything else, and then this fucking inside voice was saying to me “Is this really my life? What the fuck, why I am doing this to myself.” And I felt my eyes getting wet, but I was still staring at the screen, my hands in the exact same places.
Then I decided to blog about it. How pathetic. I just can’t even. And the worst part is, I’m not gonna do shit about it. Jeez, I hate myself sometimes.
//and fuck grammar, it’s probably full of stupid mistakes and wrong tenses, but I am not able to write in my own language anymore, not online anyway, and I just wanted to get it out of my system so yeah, sorry.